The beauty of how a butterfly starts from the beginning to flying freely in the sky in the end is truly miraculous. It starts as a tiny egg, then a caterpillar, munching away, growing each and every day. Later then, it becomes a butterfly. The way it unfolded its wings wasn’t pretty or easy. Just like they way I became me.

Sometimes I feel stuck and have no way of escaping these uncontrollable emotions. Feeling as if I’m on a rollercoaster with no brakes and no end in sight.

Feeling angry, sad, worried and scared of change. Trying to be “perfect” and be someone I’m not. Setting up unrealistic expectations for myself. Constantly comparing my body and looks to others. Always wanting to be great at everything and trying my best to aim for top-tier academic excellence. It’s overwhelming.

But I went to my only Lord and Savior. I prayed, I prayed and I prayed, letting Him take all of my feelings and worries. I felt as if there were light where I felt there was no end in sight. It felt like I finally had the hug that I’ve been longing for.

I was healed.

He reminded me that no one is perfect in this world. I was made in His image. I shouldn’t be insecure about my looks. We were all made to look different. I shouldn’t have everything put together in my life because God has a plan.

“Tomorrow will worry about itself.”

I’m just a girl who’s trying to live. Being and feeling at the bottom is part of life. It’s only temporary. Those moments don’t define who I am. Constantly feeling as if I’m not enough, going through an emotional overload and feeling doubtful is only a stage in life. Who I become is what defines me. That’s the only way I’ll grow and become a better version of myself. All the times I felt unworthy became something better. All the times I felt lost on an unknown island, I was finally found. He found me; I found Him; I was found. I began to change the way I saw life. With God, I began to be confident about myself, but I also learned to be humble because at the end of the day, who cares? I am who I am, and no one can change that. I began to love who I am. I am blessed, and so is everyone else. No one in this world is better than the other. I’m still growing, and God knows it. I’m still working on myself, and that’s all that matters because with God, I’m at the top.